Let me just jump right into this shall I no Lube no butter no Vaseline just fully fully raw dog my way into this I i am apparently racist now You heard that right my dudes according to one of my now ex followers on Instagram I am Blatantly racist I was just going about my daily life, but little did I know my whole online presence was going to be besmirched with a racist accusation which sucks because I don’t know I’m not racist or I don’t think I myself am racist I thought I had a genuine sense of respect to literally everyone. I have interacted with regardless of the race So just this general kind of accusation, whatever the fuck do, you know kind of news to me But you know some fucker on the internet said it so it must be true But WHY am I racist? How did I get this way? Can I change? Probably not because I am the worst person to walk this planet and I’m going to be Putting on a front in order to maintain my reputation. I Creepshow art I’m going to fully and completely explain this situation front to back. No bias. No opinion Just giving you the straight piss of the situation so you can go around on your pissy day and know what happened I know the term is the tea but if like piss has more impact and it’s just as more so let’s get pissy my dude Let’s start at the starting point with the art that is in dispute And if I could edit like De’Angelo Wallace or Widget or fucking TeaSpill This video would be a lot more fun, but I can’t, I suck I know. You didn’t want to unfollow because of my blatant racism You should probably unfollow for that and go follow D’Angelo Wiget or fucking TeaSpill they’re great. At the time I’m recording this audio. I drew this piece that you’re seen being drawn behind me, you know two nights ago Here’s what it looks like finished. Spoilers, That’s what it looks like as end of this video. Bye! I was watching season two of Justice League Unlimited and frankly, It was terrible But I love terrible things but ten out of ten would watch again for meaning purposes, because boy were there some good moments Well, I watched though I was drawing and I ended up drawing this character, She’s based on no one in the show I shouldn’t have brought up the show in the first place. She is literally just a cutie who is turning around with flowers in her hair as if to say hi I’m a cutie who is turning around with flowers in my hair. bingo-bongo Simple as that… “The easy way to look at it is if it has a hat on it will probably be called hat man. Most of the titles for my pieces arrived because on computer you have to call them something So I have.” while making it I really like this drawing and I still really like this drawing because I drew the flowers Because if you haven’t noticed there are flowers in it. I don’t really draw things well I know a lot of people don’t think I draw humans well either but I draw things like objects way fucking worse so the fact that I was able to make something that’s Recognizable as a flower that to me was dope if you haven’t noticed I’m pretty basic however I liked it and I didn’t know how long I was going to take to make a video Using the background play of the artwork being drawn, so I do what I always do I said fuck it and I posted it on Instagram with the caption. I can’t draw a rose as well If I am self-deprecating and makes your insults less hurtful, so I post it and went about my life little did I know I just committed an artistic hate crime cut to the next day Which is today. When I’m recording I am literally recalling like shit that happened two hours from right now and it feels like I’m living in a nightmare So let’s keep going. It’s the next day. I’m going through my DM’s because someone commented “Hey, check your DMS. I DMed you” But for the most part My DM requests are all “Buy free likes now!” or spam art accounts that want to feature my artwork. so if you’re wondering why I didn’t respond to your DM, anyone who has DM me It’s very rare that I’m able to sift through and find something of value among the “Get likes now!”, “Buy active followers now!” “Let us feature you” “Your art is great.” “Do you wanna collab with us?” [insert fake company name] However on this here day, I was able to sort out some of the non bullshit-ass DM requests That seemed like maybe I don’t know would be a nice interaction Little did I know I was about to embark on the dumbest digital quest I have ever been a part of. Scrolling through I see a message from “Doh!”. Okay, so I shouldn’t actually name her So let’s just call her Vaseline intensive care I get a message from Vaseline intensive care, and I think cool finally a message from a fan, a message that might be nice Someone’s finally gonna be nice to me today, not trying to sell me an auto liker for my account Finally an ounce a positivity in my– In my life after a fucking harsh winter little did I know what I had actually walked into or clicked into, whatever. Vaseline intensive care had sent me my own artwork just Dmed it to me and said the following I’m going to do this and a dramatic ass reading because of course I am, so feel free to call me Overdramatic or just annoying in the comments down below or if you want call me a full-on racist anything works, but now for the dramatic reading. “I know you probably didn’t mean anything by this, but it’s disrespectful as a white woman to draw a black woman. Like the skin tone, the hair, It’s all wrong and blatantly racist. I know you probably did it out of ignorance, but you’re a white woman. You shouldn’t be drawing people of color, unless you are a person of color. I would take the image down, apologize publicly, and link some people of color artists in order for this not to escalate. Please don’t make me take this any further than it needs to go.” Personally I kind of dig that it ends with a big threat. Like don’t make them do something like I’m gonna like I don’t know like I don’t know what I would do to make them do I don’t know what that means but I like it. So I read through that once and immediately was mildly pissed off. Honestly. There’s probably nothing I hate more than being talked down to especially when people come at me like they’re morally superior than I am. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think I’m a moral Beacon or– I don’t think I’m a beacon of morality and justice or whatever But I have conscious thoughts and I am capable of critical thinking so when people tell me shit like this as if I’m not aware of my words or my actions or my basic power as a human person like it just gets under my skin. I’m not an in-intel– I’m not an unintelligent person I just mess up staying fucking great nailed it Shannon. Good job so naturally I am a bit irked, a little bit peeved, a little bit not happy about the shift in the universe, and the fact that someone Instead of reading me for something proper Instead of reading me for something That would be I don’t know good like “Your roses suck, learn how to draw roses dipshit” They wanted to infer a racial injustice for my actions of drawing a person of color. I thought it was a bit of a stretch in my honest opinion in my fair unbiased completely unbothered opinion of the situation that I personally am NOT a part of but like You know seems like a stretch. LITTLE DID I KNOW that this was only the beginning of the stupidity. I Screenshot the messages to send to my boyfriend because I needed to rant about it privately To someone who would tell me if I was in the right or wrong. Like I needed to know like, Hey I don’t think this is bad, but let me just Be super sure. It’s not bad No offense, sometimes I ask you guys if I’m in the right or not, and you just enable my bad behaviors So I just need to make sure that I’m not always full-on full-out being terrible so I screenshot the interaction and I send it to my boyfriend and I send it to my boyfriend and we end up going back and forth about if this person is serious or not because He thought it was a joke. He asked me if this was said by a person of color? I said no, It wasn’t. It was said by a white high schooler who lives in New York according to her profile He asked me if she was following me actively or not and I say I don’t know. I’m kind of a shit poster though. So like, I don’t know it’s someone who actually believes what they seem to have believed would follow me So I don’t know and in the end we went back and forth and it ended up with us both being Unclear if this was trolling or not, that’s when I got a message from Instagram That was a little bit worrying. [This message has been unsent by the sender.] If you have ever received this message from Instagram It’s the fucking worst, cuz it’s so fucking vague It shows nothing about who unsent what or what their original message is, what interaction it’s from. None of it. Whatever was there is just vanished and you don’t know what it was or why it was And it’s not really a great feeling because every time that happens I always like go into panic mode like is someone deleting parts of our Conversation to make it look like I was saying something I wasn’t saying? is this person setting me up for destruction? like what? Why would they unsend something? you know, normal paranoid lunatic shit that goes through my head. So I get four notifications back to back to back, unsent by sender, unsent by sender, unsent by sender, unsent by sender and think fuck that person deleted the chats and I was right 10 minutes after they sent me you’re racist for drawing someone of a different skin color than you, suddenly this person was either no longer Offended by my mundane art or they just didn’t want to get into this argument with me for whatever reason. How was I supposed to know which one it was? Oh, right because I still know their account name I went back and I tried to message them ONLY to find out, I was blocked fully and completely blocked by Vaseline intensive care I guess they weren’t really in the mood for defending the racial injustice in my art. At that point I’m fully annoyed and a bit miffed. Like I don’t know if you’ve noticed this I’m a bit miffed about this So I made the great tactical move to post the chat to my Instagram story. One, because I was annoyed that this little butt thought by unsending and blocking me She would be erasing the evidence that she was some kind of dick and two, because I wanted to share a little bit of idiocy With my loving audience. I wanted to show proof that people like Vaseline intensive care actually do exist And they go around trying to make people feel bad and like pressure artists into a little fucking corner, because since my tumblr video people have been like no one acts like that Nobody does that, that’s not really a thing, and it’s like no DEBORAH, It is a thing. Here’s proof that it’s a thing, and literally I’m not a big artist. I can’t imagine what artist is bigger than me, with a bigger platform go through, because holy shit! Someone wants to draw something as simple as someone with another race and show diversity in their art and they get people fucking up, ending their fucking careers, like Jesus Christ! It’s ridiculous And I know you thought that was the end of the story and that we’d reached like a moral, but little did you know This is a two prompt story time reaction commentary thingamabob. Like that’s right. I’m not just an art channel I’m a gnome. Part two of this is me at talk for the past month I’ve had one very persistent fan telling me to expose another artist, not like a YouTube artist but a Professional artist on Instagram who draws things for games and is just amazing. And this person has wanted me to expose that person because they said they’re racist or at the very least problematic. They have sent me mass direct messages on all of my platforms and pretty much demanded that I out this person and make a. video on this person for only drawing two people of color. I don’t know if they’ve never drawn any other or this person is operating in some sort of Time frame because i didn’t ask, but still apparently according to this other person their entire lifespan they’ve only drawn two people of color. Now this person who’s been demanding this of me is very determined and might still be very determined, to get me to make this video and expose this person for the evil that they are But first off, not an expose channel. Not my cup of piss. Thank u, next. Second off, after the experiences I have had with the tumblr situation and this one I can Understand why other artists with bigger audiences might not want to branch out that way I was literally told, that as a white woman, white artists are not allowed to draw any other person or any other culture. That it’s some form of an appropriation and insult and that if I do that I am Blatantly racist that we have to stick to only drawing one thing and one thing only or else We’re just gonna– they’re just gonna shit on us for being the lowest of the low and well I don’t think that makes anyone racist I could see why big our artists than me are like I don’t want to touch that with a ten-foot pole. I don’t want to ruin my career. No, so I don’t think there’s really a moral here. It’s just probably more of a rant than a story time it’s just, it’s a fucking lot to deal with and if I Were slightly less jaded from years of being fucked with online. Maybe this story would be more impactful and maybe I would be crying about it, but Jesus Christ. Like, maybe we can all get our heads on straight and stop shit like this… Maybe. I don’t know though because for every person who’s like “You can draw whatever you want.” I approve this.” There’s like a person saying no, so That seems to be a good enough place to end this I don’t usually do videos that have like any sort of morals I think I feel like I’m mostly an ambivalent person. So let me know what you think of this video in the comments down below and let me know if you care. Like either way, like if you it’s SUPER DUPER racist that I drew a person of color or that if any non person of color draws a person of co- I fu- like you know Let me know if you think choosing not to draw someone out of your like ethnicity, nationality what-have-you is racist or let me know if you think Choosing not to draw someone is racist or if you don’t draw them you’re racist. Frankly I don’t think either is and I just I want to go to sleep honestly, so Goodnight, have great– a great time and let me know whatever. I’ll see you in the next video. Bye.