Hello, um, uhhh
Hi! I’m back!
You have probably noticed I haven’t uploaded in a while
Hmm… I’ve never said that before, have I now?! I mean most of the times when I take a break (which is basically between every single video)
it’s usually about a month long But this time I haven’t been on YouTube for
4 months? I think? Uhh..oh that’s not good.
I do this thing generally, around September to December where I just don’t post videos
I don’t know why! I do it every year, and I still don’t understand
why exactly I do it I just feel really uninspired at that time
(which has happened this year) I just had literally no idea what to make
and no idea what to post And I still kinda don’t but shhhh
I think the difference this year though was that I put so much pressure on myself to make content that was good and different from other things
and not to just make videos of me talking to the camera…talking about stuff
And that’s what I’m going to do today! How have I been recently?
I’ve been.. happy (relatively) During around September to…beginning of December
I was feeling really crap and sad all the time (which was not good)
But I’m feeling quite better now which is… good! Not great but I’m not completely sad every
single day to the point where I cry *small sniffly chuckle*
I’ve been very stressed out recently because of school..and stuff
Which I know I’m only… I’ve got 3 years left So I still have a lot of school left but it
is getting stressful I have my first set of exams this year
If you don’t know, in France we have 2 exams. We have the brevet, which is around 14/15
And we have the baccalauréat or the bac as most people call it, which is…
what’s… um… *counts on fingers* Which is 16-18… I think? It’s over 2 years.
This year I’m passing the first exams (which is the brevet) which are relatively very easy
We’ve already had the mock exams which I’ve done fine in
And generally they’re much harder than the actual exam
I have been feeling quite stressed out because of school… and revising and homework and having
to learn so many things *sounds of disgust/unhappiness/what the heck
was that* *sips tea* oh my gosh this tea is nice aww
I haven’t had this tea in a while and it’s really nice
I think it’s cranberry? *gasp* it’s so nice I haven’t been doing much recently… creative-wise,
which kind of sucks because I am a creative person
and if I don’t create things I feel very stressed out and anxious
and I haven’t really been creating that much recently and every time I’ve tried to create something,
I’ve given up half way in or just didn’t turn out the way I wanted it to
and that’s another reason, I think, I haven’t been uploading
Because I felt really uncreative, I put pressure on myself to be creative
and create something interesting but that made me feel less creative and then
made me feel worse so hopefully making a video will work! right..?
I’ve been listening to this singer called Melanie Martinez recently
SO MUCH, SO MUCH She’s kind of become my life
When I just discovered her, I actually painted this
I like it – it’s kind of cool I still think I’m gonna maybe make it better,
cos that kind of doesn’t look great yet I like it, it looks quite cool..right, right!?
Does it?! This is very, like, rambly and stuff but that’s
how I like it Not me when I’m editing because this will
be terrible to edit Ooh! Ooh! In December, the 18th I think?
I met a really good Internet friend called Amelle and that was great
We spent the day together and that was the first Internet friend I ever met
So that was really cool and AHH you’re great Hi, aww!
That day I also met Dodie, what? WHAT? She was in Paris at the time, and since we
kinda know each other We met and I, I, I, i-I..okay. I kind of freaked
out but oh my gosh Uh..picture!
Ah..mm mm..ah. You can see I really haven’t changed that
much since the last video I’m still trash
I really love the Internet – it’s so cool that I can talk to, through this camera,
thousands of miles away and make friends on here and then meet them..WHAT?
That’s cool. My phone broke…again. But, like, for reals now.
It doesn’t work at all..like, at all. When I turn it on, it either doesn’t turn
on or the screen just goes..blubekusblsj[vvbiuaerbgosi That’s a great description
We’ve ordered a new one though and it’s an iPhone so I’m a happy bee
It’s a 5S, in case you were wondering But that will arrive soon and AHHHH
There, there, child. THERE, THERE. Well this has been fun, hasn’t it?!
Have you done anything creative recently? What have you been up to?
Are you good? Is your mental health good? I hope it is.
Mine is fairly good right now, so that’s good. Good, good, good, good, good.
I’m going to go now – I don’t want this to go on for too long.
I probably won’t upload much – I hope I will! Probably won’t be that great though, so have
a nice day. I love you, goodbye. THANK YOU AARON AKA @acar321 ON TWITER FOR CAPTIONING THIS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AGSHLSHLS